Time stand still

When time stood still there was chaos. Nurses and doctors everywhere except where they should be. Time stands still. Moving feels like walking through jelly, then it's black. Not the sort of black your eyes get used to though.

Ten years of this so far. Many many dark days still ahead. At times tinnitus overwhelms everything, and a deep headache ensues. Going to sleep nearly always includes nightmares. I've seen things that weren't meant to be seen. Ghosts. They haunt me. They're not of my making but all of them want my help except one. The dreams can be very vivid. Right down to smells. And there's always pain, physical pain. Always.