The cruelty

The cruelty of a long term illness just keeps on dishing out misery, and many find the possibility of being normal tantalising. The truth is we'll never be normal. We're permanently putting ourselves in the way of abuse, disappointment and rejection only to be slapped down back into our boxes and our insignificant lives with the swipe of a hand. Often this is done without intention, other times, well, that's another subject.

What gets me angry is the states dealings with disabled and sick people. There's a drive amongst government departments to either hinder, bully or outright stop people who for whatever reason find themselves at the thin edge of things. There is NO help, financial or other out there for disabled people..none. And it's needed, badly.

Take the situation with the young guy in Cork with autism getting beaten up or the other lad in Dublin getting a serious thumping, with threats to rape and kill him. There's something wrong with a society that stands by and does nothing while this happens and everyone's to blame, me included.

Government departments and other agencies that have been put in place to help do the exact opposite. They hinder, block, argue, swamp you in red tape or just say no because of overly stringent rules and these are things that people with difficulties have to deal with all the time. Everybody at the edge has to, but the vulnerable, however that's measured, are challenged more than others by a system that hampers rather than helps.

Ill be the first to admit that I'm not brilliant at fighting this cruelty, I'm one of those people that is marginalised and I get tired of swimming against the current, very tired.